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Season 2, Episode 4 Ascension Podcast Transcript

Hi, friends. It’s Sarah, back with you again today. I hope your day is going really, really well and that you have smiled a lot. If not, then I hope there’s plenty of time left to turn that around and get a few deep belly laughs in today, always the best medicine.

Well, last week I had a revelation. That’s a big word, and I mean it in a big way. I was getting inclinations or should I say clues from the universe for a few months that I would be nearing some form of greater awakening. Ascension some might call it. Of course, now I’ll tell you about the revelation but I’ll let you know that I feel like I will always be ascending. I really was kind of nervous about it because in the metaphysical world, I mean, if you ascend too quickly or if you are not open to the information and you struggle against it, it can be an overload to your system. There are some people that don’t handle it well, and they get anxiety, and they have manic episodes or they just get stuck with over thinking information that has come through, and they get in a bog.

I mean, it was kind of frightening. I mean, it was great the idea that my guides for my greatest good would be delivering information to me that would help me be a better human and a better spiritual being while being a human. But I honestly was a little nervous about it because ascension is a big thing. It’s ascending. I know. I’m a dictionary today, just going to give you the different conjugations of the word ascension. No, I’m not.

In my world, in my mind, ascension is ascending to a place where you can see things clearly, and you’re getting constant downloads from your celestial guides or your guides of any kind. But you’re constantly receiving information and you’re able to process it and make really great decisions that better your life. Of course, the whole point of ascension is to better the lives of the people on the planet earth at this time and then, of course, to connect to energies and beings not of this world. It’s a big deal. I mean, I’ve run into people in the past five years that can literally see their guides.

I know I have guides and they speak to me, but I haven’t yet actually seen them. But I can tell you right now that I know exactly when one is in my space and I know when they’re near me and I know the message. It’s all very clear to me. I just don’t see them and I don’t really like per se necessarily hear them. I don’t hear voices in my head. I just – It’s a knowing. It’s what people call intuition. It’s this voice that guides you, “Okay, turn right up here.” You got to listen to that or else you’re going to get stuck in the traffic jam.

It’s really paying attention to that type of intuitive voice and it’s your guide. It’s one of your guides for your greatest good. As long as you’re calling on them and asking for their guidance and you’re open to it, they will absolutely be a part of your life and help you. Try and help you if you’ll help yourself. But I don’t see them and I’ve met people who can see them and I’ve met people who can see quite a few guides even if they’re not their own. They’ve said that they’ve seen my guides. Or there are, of course, people who can – They even feel as if they are connected very intimately with a celestial body like Arcturians or Pleiadians, and they speak the Arcturian or Pleiadian language, and they know very deeply inside of themselves that that’s where they belong or that’s where they’re from.

I’ve not had those experiences. I certainly am guided and I connected with that wisdom. But to me, I always thought, “Oh, gosh. I must be at the very beginning of this journey because I can’t see them and I can’t see auras. I don’t speak a celestial language.” For some reason, I just don’t have a lot of real deep memory of past lives or multiple planes of existence and what my other being was doing yesterday in a different plane. I’m not tied into all of that, and the only way I come to understanding my place in the journey is through my guides because I’ve asked.

I’ve been kind of – In fact, a couple years ago I was questioning like, “Wow, where am I going with this and what is this and am I crazy?” Which, yes, there is definitely a part of me that is crazy I hope because that’s where I find a lot of creativity, and I think we’re pretty loose with the idea, with the term of crazy. So I apologize if I offend anybody with loosely affiliating with that, but honestly I believe that we all see the world a different way. For anybody to label anybody else as crazy is crazy.

I’ve gotten the information that I’m here at this time to bring the light and love of the universe to humanity, and I’m not here to represent any celestial beings or represent myself as a celestial being. It’s not something I should do at this point. My journey is to connect with humans and as a human and to go through suffering and joy and all of the highs and lows and in-betweens of being a human and then being able to help other humans through that understanding, that empathy, that literal knowing of man. I’ve been there. I get you, I feel you, and I know you probably don’t believe me, and I certainly didn’t go through it exactly the way you did because nobody ever does. Only you know your own unique lessons you’ve learned. They’re etched in your soul, but I can definitely be a witness. I can definitely be a voice, and I can definitely be a hand up and link arm in arm with those around me and pull the entire human race up to a higher frequency of love.

That’s what I’m here for. I have some pretty amazing guides and I probably am just beginning on this path. I’m very excited about where it’s going but I want to tell you about this revelation about this ascension. Even though with all this knowledge and all these challenges I’ve been through and with the fact I have guides and I can listen to my intuition and I’m connected, I had this revelation about ascension. I couldn’t believe it because to me ascension was scary. I thought, “Oh, no. I don’t know if I want to ascend, if it’s going to be like that.” I also didn’t want to become detached from people. I didn’t want to ascend to a place where I was untouchable or so unhuman-like because all of a sudden I was this angelic or, God forbid, demonic being. I guess I wouldn’t be ascending. It would be descending. I’m sorry. Yeah, I got to get the definition of the word.

I really was a little nervous. Then it was so amazing how it happened. My husband and I, we always catch up first thing in the morning. We wake up very early. He has tea, I have coffee, and we sit in the quiet, and we watch the sunrise. Sometimes, we talk. Sometimes, we do our own work, meditation, visualization, mantra work. Sometimes, we just check the email. I mean, whatever comes up. But this one morning, I came in and I said, “Gosh.” I said, “I had the weirdest dream last night about you.”

Here’s something you probably don’t need to know but I’m going to tell you anyway. I don’t have great dreams. I mean, I never have. I started out in my teenage years having extremely awful, violent, terrible dreams, and I blocked all my dreams. I had a friend who taught me how to block all my dreams, and so I did that for years. Then finally, a couple years ago, I said, “You know, I think I’m ready to open it up and have dreams.” Well, I mean, oddly enough, I have never flown in a dream. I don’t get repetitive dreams. There is nothing like, “Oh, I can’t wait to go to sleep and dream tonight.” I mean, I don’t normally dream about people I know. It’s very interesting to me. I don’t get prophetic dreams.

Anyway, that’s probably another podcast. But I had this dream where I was literally punching and beating up my husband, and I was like so mad at him for making a decision that he didn’t consult me on. I was literally physically punching him which I have never done, and I’m not that kind of person. I mean, I can be but only in defense. Here I was punching him, and then he set me. He was carrying me around, and I was punching him like this monkey attached to the front of him, and I was so mad at him, and he kept apologizing, “I’m so sorry. I should have asked you.” This is in the dream. He sets me down and says, “I got to. I got to go check the kids. I’ll be back. Just stay here. I’ll be back.”

I realized when he set me down I just started crying in this dream and I said, “Oh, my gosh. I can’t believe I was hitting him.” The dream was set in this house where we had this party where all of our friends and family were there. His mother saw me hitting him, and our children saw me hitting him. I was just devastated and I’m like, “What am I doing? I hit him. I physically hit him. I would never do that. I love him and I can’t believe I did that and everybody saw me. It’s just now I can’t take it back and it’s just terrible.” I woke up.

Then he said, “Well, I had a dream about you too.” I was like, “Whoa, that’s weird. That never happens.” He dreamt that he had got a job offer for a job in San Francisco and that he was going to move and he told me in the dream, “I’m moving to San Francisco. I got this great job offer.” He said my face, he’s in the dream, just fell. I looked at him and I said, “Well, what do you mean and why didn’t you tell me about this and when were you going to talk to me?” Then I said, “You’re just going to leave the farm. You’re just going to leave and not come back.” He said that he went away in the dream and he thought to himself, “Gosh, that’s right. I cannot make this decision just for myself. I need to realize that my decisions impact the people I love, and I didn’t talk to her about this. Now, you know what? I don’t think this is the right thing to do. I’m going to get out of this somehow,” and he woke up.

I looked at him and I said, “You know what’s fascinating?” Because I really was trying, I was chewing on. It was really kind of like grinding on what my dream meant because I’m not a violent person. I thought, “Gosh, what in the world does that mean?” It was such a clear dream too, and I hardly have those where I wake up and I can remember everything. Then his dream kind of chimed in, and it kind of helped me fill in the pieces. I looked at him and I just kind of went, “Oh, my gosh. Wow. I know what your dream meant and I know what my dream meant.” I’m like, “It’s going to blow you away.”

But my dream was actually that I was beating him up, but it wasn’t him. It was every man or male figure I had had a relationship with for my entire life. I had been fighting to gain respect and to have my voice heard as a woman, as a girl. You know boys. When you start developing, your breasts stick out, and they gawk at you. Here I was this warrior spirit inside going, “Come on, man. I mean, can you just listen to my words and not look at my body? Of course, I was beautiful. I was a beautiful young woman. I mean long blonde hair and beautiful young woman. Of course, I got a lot of attention but a lot of attention for things that I felt didn’t really represent me. Like, “Hey, there’s a lot of content in here. Why don’t you find out what the content is and stop looking at the package?”

I realized that my whole life I had been fighting men and a male-dominated society always constantly wanting to just peg me as a woman, or better yet because I was blonde, as a blonde, which that has its downfalls too. So I realized in that moment that, oh, my gosh. I have been holding inside of me all these years this deep-seated kind of anger and hatred towards men because I see them as these creatures that don’t really understand women and don’t really appreciate women. In that moment though, I said, “Oh, my gosh I love men and I love my husband.” I felt just a massive like bubbling and effervescence in my body, and I almost came to tears, and I just felt so good, and I realized, “Oh, my God. I just ascended.”

Ascension is one of these big words we tied to something. I got to tell you, I now know that ascension just means loving, loving everyone, loving everything, seeing things with love, reacting with love, being in love every moment. Knowing that those things that come towards you and at you and around you that are not love, they just need love. We don’t need to punch and kick and bite and scream every single thing that comes at us that we don’t design or that we don’t “like.” If it doesn’t feel good, we just want to punch it. But really, what it means is that there’s a part of you and a part of that that needs that big giant spotlight of love shined on it. I’ve kind of had a permagrin ever since. I mean, love. It’s what it is. It’s love everything. Everything is – You got to love it.

It’s funny. When I first told this to another woman, her first response was, “Well, but you got to have boundaries. You can’t let people walk on you.” That’s her. That’s her stuff. I kind of felt sad for her a little bit that she felt immediately defensive of like, “Oh, well. Yeah. You can’t just let everything go and just –” Yeah, you can. You really can but what you can’t do because, guess what, you got to love yourself first. What you can’t do is stop loving you. If you just let people talk to you nasty and you let people steal money from you and you let people beat you up or push you around, shove you ¸or make you feel terrible, and you continue to let them do that, you’re not loving yourself. You may think that that’s love for somebody else by allowing them to do whatever they want, but that’s not love for somebody else either. You need to have those really healthy boundaries and you need to respect yourself enough to lovingly defend the boundaries.

Which means as I kind of went deeper into this revelation, I realized I had been muttering under my breath every time my husband did something around the house that I didn’t like. I’d be like, “Well, why is this spoon over here? This spoon doesn’t belong over here. How many years has he lived in this house and he doesn’t know where this spoon goes? I mean, really come on.” I would feel this just like visceral just fire, this dragon inside that just wanted to raise the field. I was doing that multiple times a day. I would be like, “Well, he doesn’t seem to understand the kids and he’s too hard on them and he didn’t even hear what I said. He’s never present.” I mean, I was mumbling like that all day long and I realized how destructive that was for me.

Now, I’ve made a pact for 30 days, no mumbling. What that means is that I don’t let him do things that make me feel icky. I have to speak up about them now. I can’t just mumble behind his back. I literally now need to say to him, “Hey, hon. So I’m in the middle of making dinner, and one of our boys needs some help, and I’d really love it if maybe you could help me with dinner so that I go help our son,” instead of saying where is he, why is he never around when I need him. Those would have been the things I might have said before.

But now, I have to literally ask him to help me, to be present, to provide love to me that feels like love. So putting a voice to that in a very loving way and not saying where have you been and why haven’t you been here. I felt so stressed. No, no, no. Just in the moment, “Hey, would you mind because this is what I need to do, and I’d really appreciate it,” and he jumped right in and he helped out. I mean, I ascended. I ascended it into love, and that’s what ascension is. It’s this land of love.

Just to wrap back to that and just to not leave you hanging, his dream was that he’s had a challenge most of his life of being really super present in the moment and being aware of how his decisions impact others. I think in this dream, it was very clear to me that he’s finally doing enough work with meditation and mantras and guide words that he’s starting to become present. He’s starting to recognize that he does care and that he doesn’t want to hurt those around him that he loves. He wants to have that love. To have that love, he needs to respect those that he loves. It was wonderful, and so it was great. It was a great morning, really, really wonderful morning.

I wanted to just tell you all about it because what I wanted you to get out of this whole podcast which, God, it feels like this podcast is really long and I apologize for that. But what I want you to get is that ascension isn’t scary. Ascension is like – It’s amazing. It’s this wonderful, warm, loving place. I’m not saying that it lives forever. That moment didn’t carry through my entire week. But to have that moment of reference, to be able to look back on and say, “Oh, wait. I need to check in and see where I am because I want that feeling all the time.” I had that feeling. Now, I can reference that feeling. Now, I can go back to that feeling and say, “Wow, where am I at right now?” It’s a marker now that I can use to get back to that feeling.

Ascension is a wonderful thing, and honestly it’s a big word for a little word, meaning love. No one needs to be afraid of it, and you don’t have to think that you’re going to be abused or taken advantage of or walked on for being in love with yourself, in love with another person, in love with the world, in love with your intuition and your ability to connect with your guides. It’s all love.

Anyway, I just wanted to share that with you today on this podcast to just let you know that some of you out there have heard of the term ascension. If you haven’t, look it up. Our website is going to launch very soon, and our website is very, very thorough. It’s www.gwbw.com. You’re going to love it. It’s a beautiful website. It has a lot of information on it. Guess what? We actually have definitions where we define ascension among lots of other metaphysical words that you may not have heard of. Or if you did hear of, you don’t know what they meant. Hopefully, we can help you out with that because the number one goal of GroWise Be Well is to raise the energetic frequency of humanity by linking together with knowledge and empowerment.

We exist to help you resonate at a frequency of love and link arm in arm with somebody else in the frequency of love. Then we’ll just rise up together, and we will get rid of a lot of ugly things in this world, and we will save humankind and all of the animals on the planet. It’s a beautiful thing. GroWise Be Well’s website will be out there soon, very, very soon, hopefully no later than the second week of February. My web developer’s probably like, “Oh.” But, no, really I hope that’s the case, and I wish you all a wonderful week. Please love yourself and try and speak lovingly about your boundaries. That’s how we’re going to get there. All right, everybody. See you next Youday!