Hi everyone, it’s Sarah Southwell again with groWise Be well. Welcome back, I’m glad to have you back listening. I know that sometimes I hit you guys with some controversial things but today’s fun because it’s not controversial. It’s just full of positivity. So, all right, maybe you’re turning off now. It’s not going to be boring, it’s just going to be happy. It’s going to be good. Anyway, hang in there with me.

So lately, I’ve mentioned, I think at a previous podcast that I’ve been in this void, what I’m calling a void where I’m deciding, not really deciding. I’m not deciding. I wish I was, I wish I could be that direct right now. I’m literally feeling like I’m hanging out in this kind of black void of space where I don’t really have a clear direction for where I’m going next and it’s a very uncomfortable place for me because I always have a direction for where I’m going. 

I’m a builder, I’m a creator, I make things in my life, I make things a reality and I always have and at this moment, I am being asked to just pause and wait for guidance to come in to direct me where I’m going next and it’s very uncomfortable and I’ve gotten to the place also where realizing that I don’t necessarily want to run a large business. I don’t want to have a lot of employees. 

I realized that groWise Be well is my story of how I healed myself, how I healed my children and I’m still doing both of those and, frankly, milking goats and being a baseball mom and everything else that goes into that, it’s really about the things I’ve researched and learned and fought through to get to a place where I’m happy and feeling joyful because everyone is going through things and I feel like sometimes people are so busy or possibly so hurt or so lost that they don’t take the time or don’t have the time to really fully research the possibilities to get them to a joyful state again. Sometimes we can dip so far into a pit of despair that it’s very difficult to climb out.

So I realize groWise Be well is really kind of my story, it’s me. It’s not really a business and it’s not really things. You know, the shop is great and I love it and it’s beautiful and I can tell you right now, that if it was in Whitefish Montana, it would make a ton of money. So, we would be very profitable if we were in a location that gets a lot of tourists and people are looking for a higher consciousness, they’re looking for these metaphysical tools. They’ve already learned about them a little bit in their environment and I can tell you, I think we would be extremely successful if we were in a bigger metropolis for sure. 

But, I don’t want to do that. I want to live on my farm and I want people to come out here and enjoy groWise Be well in its environment because there is a reason why we’re in this environment, this is so inspirational and grounding and powerful that people should come to it more often.

So today, I’ve been thinking about being this void. This has been, as I said, challenging and I have noticed that I’ve been getting angry lately, very angry. I mean, not like, I don’t know, I say very angry, very angry for me, okay? Which is like, I have these moments where something just really rubs me the wrong way and I mean, I have literally said probably more than once in the past two weeks, “Well, why don’t you just punch him in the face?” you know? Or, “I’m going to punch that person in the face” or whatever, it’s like, I just go, “Oh my gosh, what am I saying, what am I feeling, what am I thinking?” Wow, what’s in there that needs to come out and be released and be let go. I need to look at it and I need to make peace with it and I need to let it go.

So, I realized that I’ve really come to ahead I just felt icky, you know? I felt like, “Why did I say that to that person and why did I respond that way and why did I seem to care so much about that?” right? There were these little things that I was getting angry about and I’m going, “No-no-no, uh-uh. No, that’s not me” That’s not me. 

So, I had to kind of get grounded and call upon my guides and my guardians and really kind of face these things. And so on Monday, we have this super full moon and it was a fantastic time to let go. There will be another, don’t worry, it’s not like you’re listening to this going, “Oh my god, I missed my chance to let go” No, no, no, full moon’s happen every month, sometimes twice in a month which is pretty cool but, you’ll get another chance and honestly, you don’t have to wait for a full moon. You can do this any day, it’s just really super powerful on full moon, you get t he assistance of the moon but you can let go any day, anytime. 

So on Monday with this full moon, I decided, “Okay, I’m going to do it” and I mean, I was already in bed and I’m laying there thinking, “Oh gosh, who do I get rid of this stuff?” so I just grabbed my journal and I started writing, I wrote “anger, anger” all over the page and then I wrote all the statements of things that I’m angry about honestly, that really were bothering me. But honestly, heart really worthwhile to keep in front of my consciousness, they really were pretty ticky-tacky when I really looked at them but still, they were there, they were bothering me and so they were all kind of buzzing around me like blood sucking flies, right? 

And I was getting really annoyed because there were so many and so I wrote them all out. I even wrote over some of them because I ran out of space on my page and then, I created this spell. I created an incantation that rhymes and I’m trying to remember what it was. I think it’s “Anger, anger, out you get, happiness and joy is what I want to live my best.” And I repeated that, something like that, three times and I went outside to my barbecue area and we have a little fire pit there and I just said that three times, clapped three times. I called the guardians and the guides in to help me with letting it go and I burned it and just watched it burn.

I mean, you got to make sure it burns all the way out and thank the moon and my guides and guardians and went and read a book to my children for bedtime while we’re reading this fictional book about this fairy who is working very hard to overturn a law against magic in her kingdom and she – the title of the chapter that I was reading to my children that night and I’m not kidding, I can’t make this up.

The title was “Anger” and she had lashed out at someone at the end of the last chapter and she was apologizing to that person in this chapter and saying how she realizes that her true power is in love and that she apologized for reacting and not just acting like she wanted to because she was tired or she was stressed or whatever it was but she realized that that was not her best.

I just was like, chuckling and I told my boys, I was like, “Oh my gosh, do you realize what I just did?” and you know, there’s this chapter and they were like, “Woah, that’s crazy!” 

And so then, the next morning, I woke up and I always read a couple of different positive statements and mantras for the morning and there are these apps that I use and they generate these statements and both of them were about letting go of anger and embracing love and joy. I was just like, “Whoa, this is crazy.” I mean, the universe was sending me such strong messages, such strong messages, they needed me back into a place of love and joy, to be able to be my most powerful to be able to do what I’m supposed to do which is spread love and joy in this world.

I had been letting all of those little flies around me, you know, make me be somebody I’m not. 

Then it’s like over the course of the next few days this week, I mean, I have seen and read so many little inspirational things about how love is the most powerful and how anger is not necessary and anger is really an emotion caused by fear and you really need to identify the fear. Then I would see like on the windows of the store, love, written out really big and I was just getting it from everywhere. I probably will be for the next week just to make sure it’s really cemented in there. 

But it is amazing to me how I had gotten so far away from the frequency of manifestation, which is love. Love is the most powerful frequency we can feel and that we can emote. It is life-altering and we tend sometimes to think that anger and violence are actually life-altering, that anger and violence that there’s power in anger and violence and that people who walk around and act tough, like me. I never actually said it to anybody but I’d mutter like, “Well, I am going to punch your face” you know? It’s like a natural reaction but that’s exactly what it is, it’s a reaction to something that has pushed your button. 

You are feeling fearful about something. When you really dig down in, you’re going to find that it’s fear-based and mine was coming from a place of fear of the unknown, fear of, “What am I doing?” I am affecting the lives of this wonderful women that I work with at groWise Be well and I am affecting my life and I am affecting groWise Be well and I am affecting my family’s life and I mean, it’s been an uncomfortable place to be in to go a little bit of a different direction away from creating these physical entities that I have to then care for. 

Now, I am stepping into this place of wanting to care for humanity and be a leader and be a teacher, not necessarily a business owner. I don’t think I am a very good business owner anyway. I am not a good sales person. I really have never been able to push people into things, I can only speak from my heart and only tell people about things that I’ve personally have seen a positive effect from in my life. So I’ve never really been super good about it and as much as I think I wanted to be this amazing business person because my father was, my father was brilliant with business and, you know, he set the bar pretty high. And dang it, I can meet that bar. I can exceed that bar and I can but not in business. He is really got it. He’s got a natural talent for it, I don’t. I have to work pretty hard at it and so it’s really about me finding out what my natural talent is for. 

To me, it’s helping people understand the little tips and tricks that I have researched and literally put into practice because I love experimenting on myself and helping you all find an easier path to joy in your life because I do find there are so many people out there that are lost on that path to joy. And I too have been there even just recently and I want to move forward maybe to write a book or to teach classes or to hold workshops on our farm. 

So I am really kind of going a direction that is different and that was fear and so it was creating anger in me, anger about everybody else. You know, making my life uncomfortable and it’s like, “Oh no-no” I was already uncomfortable. That’s their stuff, right?

 So I just think the gist of this podcast is really I think to remind everybody that especially in the hot days of summer and they are upon us to keep your cool and to step away from a situation. 

Take a deep breath, just smile. Maybe just I mean say, “I’m sorry. You know what? I’ve got to go think about that. I’ll be back in just a little bit” and go take a deep breath and connect with your guides and your guardians and ground yourself. And even if you don’t have guides and guardians, I mean, connect with the universal power. Connect with your God, connect with your savior. Connect with whoever it is that helps you out in your challenging moments, ask for guidance and ask for love. Ask to feel love, for yourself first because it is like that oxygen mask in the airplane. If you don’t feel love for yourself, you cannot love others. So love yourself and then go love that person who is pushing your buttons because there is something obviously out of whack in their life too and you could be a real help to them possibly or maybe not. Maybe they just need to be what they are and let them come to it at some other point. You certainly don’t need to teach them a lesson and you definitely don’t need to punch them in the face. 

So love is the answer. I think I say that a lot on these podcast and the reason is because it’s a difficult lesson for me to embody. I really have struggled most of my life to become this very loving empathic being who only wants to love others. I have actually been a warrior type my entire life and it is a new awakening for me to realize that there is something stronger than the fist. There is something stronger than cuss words and hard metal music and angry words. There is something stronger than all of those and it’s love and we tend to think love is so weak and oh so flowery and just not strong and that’s where we’ve got it all wrong. 

I am constantly learning that lesson, which is why I keep saying it to you all too because it’s the truth and I can’t get away from it. It’s truly where we’re all meant to be is in a state of love and so I wish love for all of you and that you can even feel it even for a short moment and when you lose, you lose touch with it, notice, take a deep breath, don’t judge yourself. That’s not love, let everything that you’ve done or said be the past. Forgive yourself, ask forgiveness from others if you need to, and move on with love. 

All right, everybody, good luck out there. I will, I’m sure give you some kind of update at some point about how I have been able to manage through the hot summer months, how I’ve been able to keep my cool through the hot summer months. 

All right, have a great day. 

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